My Weight Loss Journey

I got weighed last night and I had lost 1/2 a lb How? I will never know!! But its kind of given me a little push in the right direction. Me and my Husband had a take away last night as a kind of mark towards my new life (its always about food isnt it!!!) I have got a little note book that I will keep with me. ive written in it the reasons I want to lose weight and kept some 'Fat Photos' of me in there so if ever I am tempted to stray I can look in there for a deterant!! I have brought a packed lunch into work today so here goes - DAY 1, Im kind of scared and excited at the same time!! xx

My name is Jo, im 31 years old and overweight. Been in this position for a number of years but recently has got worse and worse. I now have no self esteem, no confidence and feel lonely in myself - I comfort eat and so the circle continues. I have joined countless classes, tried most diets and used every excuse in the book as to why it isnt working and now im at a point where it is starting to affect my health and if i dont do something soon I could die. My BMI says that I am morbidly obese (I didnt think i looked THAT bad!!)

I got married in May this year and although I loved the day and love the man I married, I hate my wedding photos, everyone says I look beautfiul. All i see is a fat blob staring back at me and its SOOOOO depressing. I dont want anyone to see those photos, let alone show them to the children I hope to have one day. My everloving (and not too impressed at having to do it for a second time!) husband has agreed that as an incentive we are going to Crete next May (on our one year anniversary) can renew our vows on a beach and have some lovely photohraphs taken - very romantic!! But the stipulation is I have to lose the weight - hes not being nasty he just knows there is no point in doing this if im in the same situation I was at the last wedding

So I have 9 months to lose weight and most importntly for me get fit and healthy.

I joined Weight Watchers last Thursday and have wasted yet another week so I felt if i could share this journey with you it might help me and might help others too who are in the same boat as this is one of the hardest things I have ever done. ( I gave up smoking a year and half ago with no help, yet this is like the hugest mountain I have to climb.

Last Thursday when I got weighed - I was 15 stone 11lb. I am 5ft 3 and struggling in Size 20 bottoms and Size 18 tops.

After I have been weighed tomorrow night I will post my next blog (hoping im not any heavier!) with my plans for the week.

And to make a start, rather than saying ill wait til after tomorrows class to start - YET ANOTHER EXCUSE I will start in the morning - the first day of the rest of my life cos at the moment I dont feel like I have one.

Jo x x x